Your mind, your will and your emotions

Have confidence that the Lord makes you to lie down in green pastures, which means that He is taking you to a place of rest and stillness in Him: “Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10).”

If you are always running around and don’t have quiet time with the Lord, then how can you receive restoration in your mind, will, and emotions? Modern life can drain you dry if you let it. That is why so many people are emotional wrecks. They are running on empty. But God promises to restore us.

Once you receive rest and restoration in the Lord, then you can walk with Him as He leads you in paths of righteousness. He shows you how to think right, believe right, and live right.

Even though your circumstances may make you feel like you are walking through the valley of the shadow of death, you will not fear because you know the Lord is with you. God’s goodness toward you will be so visible that even your enemies will see His handiwork upon your life. They will see God’s grace abounding toward you.

What is God’s grace? Grace is everything God is and God has made available to you. In old movies about royalty, you see people addressing the King or Queen as “Your Grace” as they bow down. Jesus is “Your Grace.” He gave His very life for you. In Him, you have a new identity as the beloved of God.

“The LORD is my shepherd; I have everything I need. He lets me rest in fields of green grass and leads me to quiet pools of fresh water. He gives me new strength. He guides me in the right paths, as he has promised.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭23:1-3‬ ‭GNB‬

In Jesus, you have forgiveness of sin and victory over sin. In Him, you have peace and joy because He left you with both. In Him, you have love and with His love, you are empowered to love your neighbor as yourself. When you consider this, then you see that material things cannot compare with the riches of His grace! Because Jesus is your Shepherd, then you indeed shall not want when you meditate on all you have in Him.

With love

19’s Observations!


Happy New Year 2018

Hi guys!

I know this is coming up a little late but I want to take time to wish each and everyone of you following my blog and reading my posts Happy New Year.

I was away for the summer and of course spending time with family did not really permit me to write a post and returning to the UK … Oh if you’re familiar with the UK system, then you know it’s ‘January Exams’ time. So here are the reasons for the late wishes.

Anyway, this year, I plan a lot of consistency for this blog. More exciting and useful posts and amazing surprises. I will be posting at the end of every week and of  course, if I am inspired to write something, I’ll do so immediately like it has been the case this past year.  That would be my only commitment to this blog for 2018 which is worth sharing with you guys.

Don’t forget to subscribe, share, comment and like.

Once more, Happy New Year!


Holla holla!

So for the past couple of days, this topic kept coming to my mind and it left me seated in my room wondering what I actually understood and implied when I evoked safety.

Comment below what your definition of safety is!

This year, I have been in the massive job hunting phase. Not only am I looking for a job, but also, a place to debut a professional career. So my quotidian is basically, school and job applications. Of course I eat and sleep but those two, particularly have become my hobby and daily activities.

Anyway here’s the context.

When I started applying for jobs during summer, I did like everybody else; companies background checks and roles search. To be honest, as a graduate even though you are exposed to several experiences be it academic, extracurricular or professional, you can only have a pre-conceived idea of where you want to be and what you want to do for a living. However, these ideas and plans are sometimes influenced by things that surround us, people who inspire us and who we aspire to be or even experiences that have exposed us to particular areas or situations. In my case, despite some of these factors, I equally considered competitiveness. And best believe me, this has had a huge impact on my choices.

I study and have resided in the United Kingdom for the past three years now (moving on four soon) as an international student. When I came here, I saw, I witnessed and I experienced as paraphrased from a typical Cameroonian quote. I developed interest in certain areas of finance, markets, consulting and entrepreneurship which is still the case today. However, when time came actually start applying, I questioned myself repeatedly about the market. I realised I had to compete with a thousand of applicants from all around the globe and this scared me quite significantly I would say. I got frustrated from the fact that spaces were always limited (and would always be) and that opportunities were not perpetual.

So I stepped back a little and started looking for the less competitive areas. Those I was really certain the expectations would be lower, those I definitely knew not many people would apply to and by the end of my second year at University, I had made a selection of these companies and the roles offered. Little did I know that my analysis was short-term. I had failed to look at it from a wider perspective and consider the different angles.

To me, I was probably making a safe choice.

Fast forward to last month. I do not really know how this hit me but I began to thing again at how safe I would go in life. Is that how my options would be? Is that what I really wanted to settle for? Safety! When this thought came to my mind, I knew it was a sign. A sign that the choices I had began to make or the mindset I was having was probably not the best. Had I come this far in life to finally settle for ‘the safe option’. Had I studied – after getting admission into a Russell Group University (UK’s classification of the American Ivy League) to end up with no challenges, to end up not taking risk just because I preferred safety? It hit me faster and faster as I put more thought into the question.

I then analysed my choices in terms of job selection regardless of competition and how much potential I was about to give up. This opened my eyes even to sectors I had thought and classified before as ‘male field’ and it made me realise something really important.

Life is about these challenges. Now, I fully understand the importance of putting myself out there and stepping out of the safety and comfort zones. Stepping out of zones my mind would not be challenged, where I would not feel energised and stimulated (in every sense of it). I do believe challenges lead to growth and that the competition we are exposed to should only be a booster or motivating factor to even push harder. When you actually undergo this competition, then you know how worthy and deserving you are to be where you are and have what you have.

Imagine being chosen from a thousands of applicants, with different backgrounds, different stories, different experiences. Isn’t that awesome. Does it not feel rewarding. Believe me,  its such a good feeling and sensation. Since I had this ‘meditation’ with myself, I decided to think deeper than what the surface presents and actually pursue a career I am really interested in even if it’s risky (by risk I mean – limited offers, positions, gender dominated) and take the challenges.

Since I eliminated safety from my dictionary (still drive safely haha), I have gained so much and have had so many opportunities. It seems like God was just waiting on me to come to this realisation and make use of my potential and competencies. I have attended way more interviews, assessment centres than ever before and even right from the start, my applications (forms, CV and cover letter submissions) are being retained. Perhaps, I am even more motivated and that comes across in my cover letters, CV or during interviews. I have equally had few rejections but at later stages of application processes. Stages I never expected to get  to before. I learn a lot from these experiences and opportunities and these have given room to so much improvement.

At first, I thought fields such investment banking, mergers and acquisitions, securities, asset management were for a specific type of persons, companies such as GoldmanSachs, Blackrock, Citi, Blackstone, Vanguard (the list continues) only recruited candidates with the  MIT, Harvard, Oxford or Cambridge etiquette. What was I thinking … As long as you possess the skills set required for these positions, as long as you have a strong academic background that reflects your intellectual capabilities and as long as you have accumulated experiences that mould you into a resourceful individual, go for it. The rest will fall into place.

You are worth so much more than what you think. You are capable of doing so much better than what you think. Remember that even with investments, only the projects or portfolios with high risk have greater expectations of returns. Don’t remain too comfortable with your safe option. It’s good to keep your options open and have many plans but at the same time, it’s very important that you put yourself out there, take challenges and get involved even if society makes you feel like that particular sector is not inclusive of your gender, background or path.

No more safety!

19’s Observations.





The most important moment of our girls routine.
As you know, our hair is very dry and this dryness prevents the sebum from circulating well and causes a slow growth. I will not go into details but I just want to make you understand how important hydration is or you will never see the fruit of your work because if your scalp, your roots and hair is not well hydrated it will always be tangled and you will feel like your hair is not growing. It’s just that they do not lie down but stay wrapped up with each other.

Here’s a picture of my hair before moisturising it and its from three days after my deep wash and conditioning. As you might probably notice, my hair well clean, in twists (which I usually do after washing my hair). Ad: Picture taken a year post big chop.

You can hydrate your hair with several products that we all have at home. For example with water and glycerin; make this mixture and put in a spray and apply it section by section to your hair and be careful to leave it on your head. You can also in a spray or a bowl mix argan oil and aloe vera you apply it well on your hair and focus on the lengths. Aloe vera is really good, whether for the hair or the face (see my post on my hair growth secrets). You can even use it without oil.  I personally apply it to feed my hair; it has really helped with repairing dead skin cells on my hair (that can sometimes lead to dandruff) and keeps my hair shiny and conditioned.
Here are the two techniques I use and would definitely recommend. I will try others and in another article I will talk about the effects. But before we parted I wanted to tell you why you sometimes have trouble moisturizing your hair:
1. Either you use products that do not hydrate well so are not made for you
2. Either you expose your hair too much to heat
3. Either you use shampoos that dry your hair out. I just stopped buying different shampoos here and use only shea moisture products to wash my hair and that by myself.
4. Either you have a bad technique to maintain hydration.
What I do to maintain hydration is that just after my hydration I am bathing with oil. Of course I do not put a lot of oil just right. Then I will leave  20 mins in my helmet and then remove it and comb my hair. I usually put shea butter which is definitely my G!

Gratefulness and Humbleness 

Hi guys,

So it’s been almost two weeks since I last posted. Sorry about that. As some of you might be aware, I have now resumed classes and its a whole new level. Postgraduate studies!

I started my Masters in Finance three weeks ago and trust me as scary as the course name seems to be, it fully carries its name and weight. I now have three hours long of lectures, with more individual learning, a lot of articles and academic papers to read, keep up with latest news, tutorials and seminars. Guys I have to submit a 20000 word dissertation by the end of the year. Should I be crying or laughing!

So far, I am not complaining but you know there’s never one thing you fully just engage with. I have my business to run, my job search to do (between applying for jobs, psychometric testing, phone and video interviews, assessment centres, CFA training, 24 hours seems a bit too short as every single second is accounted for. But well, one has to do what she has to do to get that life or to the position she aspires to be in.


I haven’t been exercising. News or normal?  I can’t really tell, but I have been active. That’s what I can say. I wanted to join Tennis again this year but guess what, membership is now £100 and I have been asking myself whether there’s going to be some sort of Wimbledon on campus courts because I do not understand the exorbitant fee. The Guardian had said it all when they had classified my University as porch. Forgetting that not everyone’s bank account is porch, lol.

Last week, I caught ‘fresher’s flu’, typical cold, cough, sore throat that everyone (well most people) get at the start of University when all the viruses meet in lectures and parties during freshers (I missed my freshers week so I do not know where I got this from by the way). It made me feverish and quite tired but it’s all gone, almost, now, thank God.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well. Wherever you are reading me from, I hope you are making the most of your time, enjoying life and most importantly, seizing opportunities. I also hope that you are finding a way of getting that motivation, that inner strength and force that allows you to keep on top of your work and goals.

As I was writing this post, I was thinking, yes I am giving some updates and a random chit-chat about myself, but why not drop some light to all you readers. Well, I decided to explore the verse of the day on the bible app and I think I have come up with some fresh fruits to sweeten your days and week

No matter where you are, what you’re doing or how you got where you are at, as we set our minds on things above, shit still happens… Remain humble and grateful in everything you do. Every morning, you’re blessed to open your eyes and move your body. Live each new day to live as Christ and love as he did while giving praise to the Almighty God. We all are in different stages and places in our lives, which challenge us on so many levels. Yet the word of God is saying that those responsibilities are to be put at God’s feets so He can give us the grace to handle them. So that when it gets tough, we can stand and execute all unto the Lord. This is to get you out of your head and resist the devil trying to war for your peace.

Do not be discouraged and always seek for the David in you and know that victory is yours no matter the Goliath you can come across.

Till next time bees xx

19’s Observation.