LETTER TO MY FUTURE TWENTY YEAR OLD SELF

Dear Twenty,

You are just few days away. I thought I would write a letter to you so we get to know each other and work as a team to climb up that lader we both are aware of.

Anyway, how are you feeling. I don’t really know how to feel as I’m about to enter the ‘Twenties’ stage. But I think to start things rightly, I need to give you a little history class about my current self.

I am nineteen (obviously) and I’m a recent graduate holding a Bachelors of Science with Honours in Accounting Studies in England. I recently started my business, an e-commerce business, solely managed online through social media which operates in my home country with the help of my twin (yes I have a twin) called Bygone Styles Cameroon (find the link below). Starting next October, I will be pursuing an MSc in Finance from the most reputable business school in England and probably in the world. So far this sounds exciting (although the struggle to get here was real and I hope to give a bit more on my experiences soon).

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But let’s have a little more face about myself and my personality.

I am a very short (about 5.5 ft), overly* ambitious individual in the pursuit of stability, independence and continuous improvement. What I mean by overly* ambitious is, I always set high goals and standards for myself (even though things do not always go as planned). I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself (no need for external pressure from parents as they tend to worry often) and I am very conscious of the competitive business environment, existing societal pressures and complexities. I am often told I am too hard and strict with myself and I need to relax a bit. But the only reason for this is that I strongly want to make it in life and iI am scared of failure (the thought of that is simply impossible).

I am also fun. Aside caring and working for my future, I love networking, meeting new people, writing, photography (I’m that one friend that always takes pictures), cooking (very creative, cycling (20km cycling is the longest i’ve ever done in a day), music ( I wish I knew how to dance! But you’ll realise that quickly) and swimming. Very often, I tend to meditate (there come times I totally don’t feel like talking, seeing anyone or stepping out).

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I don’t drink enough water (somehow, I don’t get that thirsty) and there are a lot of things I do not eat (not that I am allergic to those but I don’t just like them). But in no way does that mean I am picky as some people tend to say. It’s just that I have different taste. I don’t like sugar (anything sugary) and I don’t like salt either (I can cook without).

Character wise, I am quite sociable. Very open-minded, kind, caring (every Uncle and Aunty and even my parents are at rest when I am with their children) and non-judgemental. I am often told I have family and team spirit. People don’t appreciate the fact that I speak the truth (because it always hard to hear) and say I am too forward (This is something I am working on – it’s good to watch our mouths). This is because the words we speak can have long-lasting impacts directly connected to present and future circumstances.  However, I find it really hard. It’s so difficult for me to ignore a situation or approve of something because I can’t give my sincerest opinion for the fear of hurting someone’s feelings (of course I should be close to you to say something). Perhaps, I need to work of the way I say out these things so that they do not come across as rude or too forward*. I most certainly mind my business (If it doesn’t concern me or anyone particularly close to me, I’ll definitely shut up, unless it threatens people’s safety).

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I’m a Christian believer. Practising my faith has been a journey and everyday, I pray it gets better. One thing I’m sure about is that God is real. I pray on my own (especially in moments of crisis which is not very nice) and every other day with my closest friend. I am a sinner I admit. There are things I struggle with and I am also working on those. However, because I am hitting the ‘Twenties’, I would ask of you categorically not to accept my bad doings. I want everything brand new.

So my Twenty Self, that’s grosomodo what I have to say.  I am just curious about what you have in stock for me? Are you ready for me?

I have inserted a bucket list of my goals and expectations for you. I just want you to know them from the start so that we can make these things work and happen. It is just between you and me (sorry my readers, when they begin to happen, I promise I will let you know). I hope to reveal this list around this same period next year.

A minute of silence for this 🙏🏾.

Now that I have made you aware of all these things, how do you feel? I feel ready for this new stage of my life. I pray for wisdom, courage, discernment and consistency. I pray for God’s guidance and protection.

Sincerely ,

19’s Observation.

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